Surreal

Eryu 105

Man la, imse until nw havent got back any CT results with the exceptionof H1 bio. Somehow this CT campaign went from a success to a failure and there is still no news.

Actuallly did not see why I cared that much.

Nevertheless, I've relooked at my JC life thus far... and decided that there should be no regrets in my memories. I make decisions on the memories I create and I hope that when I look back at the past years on, I will look at it just like how I am looking at my past right now.

Even then, there are still irrepressable impulses that will ruin these memories. Feelings of animosity, and hate. I hope I will not act upon these, for it will destroy what I've been fighting for.

Such conflicts were not present somehow in the past as I thought about them at the sanctuary. I look upon my past as a whole with the summers and winters forming a harmonious and distinct past I call my memories. But somehow I am uncertain now.

will I fight with my mind, or my heart?